To Find Oneself- Part 2

To find oneself- part 2
Current mood: happy

So I was thinking last night more on the subject that I wrote earlier.  Especially on the last sentance of the quote..."One's identity is the gift of another's love"

And who is the giver of that perfect love?  Our Lord and Savior.  So essentially another part of that whole paragrah that I wrote last night is that, One's identity is found in the gift of love from our Savior. 

God let me bury myself in you so that I may find myself entirely. 

Community with God and Community with people = a path on becoming a whole person. 

*total side-note* Hmmm... I pretty happy with my thoughts....it pleases me and makes me smile... :)

To Find Oneself

To find oneself...
Current mood: contemplative

"I have know numerous persons who have been 'looking for themselves' for a lifetime without success. And many there are whose sense of identity never involved any kind of conscious search for self at all.  In reflecting on my own life, I observed that those times my self-identity has been most secure, have been those times when I was known by another-- not by myself00 and was accepted by that other.  I then recalled someone having said that "those who give their lives in search of happiness will find many things, but never happiness." Could it be that the issue of self-discovery is analogous? I believe it is.  My assumption now is that one's search for self ultimately is fruitless because it seeks to find that which can only be given by another.  In short, we may seek self-identity and hope to find ourselves, but the hoped-for result never occurs through our own efforts.  We seek ourselves, but are finally found!  One's identity is the gift of another's love." (That Homiletical Plot- by Eugenve L. Lowry

Came across this quote in the book I am reading for class.  I like it...

I feel like we try to find ourselves for so long ...at least that is what I have done.  But we forget one aspect of finding oneself... it is being in community.  Our friends and loved ones shape who we are.  And in that we find who we really are.  It is in our relationships with others.  As I have learned we are built for community and that is how God created us.  We are built for community with our Lord and community with others.  So many times I forget that because I am "Miss Independent" I guess I think I can handle it all on my own.  Then I find out I am wrong.  I need to first realize that essentially I don't handle things on my own, it is my God who helps me handle it.  And sometimes He even handles it all.  I have also realized that God puts people in our lives to walk life with us and vise-versa.  In so many ways we don't follow through with that.  We don't call people when we are in need, we don't call people when they are need, and we don't call people when they have been placed on our hearts.  What is so hard about that? Well for me it's because I get scared...fear is what handicaps us.  And yet I am reminded that the only thing to fear... is fear itself.  Its funny how one little paragraph can make me think of so many things...

I am so thankful that I have amazing people in my life.   

Alright I have to get back to reading now...

Stand...
Current mood: contemplative

So this song it basically the story of my life... and I wanted to post it so I did...

Rascal Flatts- Stand

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

Chorus
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend 'til you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand

Life's like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of canyon with only one way down
Take what you're given before it's gone
And start holdin' on, keep holdin' on

Repeat Chorus

Every time you get up and get back in the race
One more small piece of you starts to fall into place – yeah

Repeat Chorus

Yeah, then you stand – yeah
Yeah, Baby
WOO HOO, WOO HOO, WOO HOO-
Then you stand – Yeah, Yeah

No sleep...

Thinking equals not sleeping
Current mood: sleepy

I am a daughter of the King.  I am Passionate.  I am forgetful.  I am loving. I am a listener as well as a talker.  I am spontaneous yet a planner at the same time.  Things usually fly over my head.  Yet I remember the most unusual things. ..

I like to laugh.  I like to have fun.  I'm bad at grammar.  I like deep conversations.  I like to be real.  I like late night talks. I like to journal yet I don't do it often enough. 

I love music, it speaks to my soul.  I love lying in the sun and feeling the warmth on my face.  I love the beach especially when you can hear waves crash against the shore. 

I over-anyalize everything and I don't trust God as much I should.  I love God, for He is good all the time. 

I think too much and it keeps me up at night.

I read into things and I fear that I might be wrong.  Am I wrong? I don't know... sometimes I am, sometimes I'm not. 

I am fearful of being hurt but then I am reminded that there is nothing to fear but fear itself. 

I probally speak my mind too much and that gets me in trouble. 

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Thinking...

I have a lot of life experiance so I feel older then people around me sometimes.  Yet I also feel like a child, playful and distracted at the same time.  However I think it is a good balance.  We should always have our inner child come out and play at times. 

It's 12:51am and I cannot sleep.  Why can't I sleep.  I'm too busy thinking.  Thinking about life I guess. 

My room is messy, I have not cleaned really since I was sick.  I was always too tired when I got home from work and took my 2 hour nap before dinner.  Now I'm just lazy.  Go figure.  I'll clean it tomarrow. 

Think..think..thinking...will you ever turn off?